This year has been interesting… I guess interesting is the least descriptive word that I can use.
I’ve made great strides and changes in my life, and as things have stabilized for me, at least on some level where I’m living as a woman full time, and I started to truly know what happiness was, the world started to shift around me.
I don’t pretend to know where the world is shifting to, but I’m going to try and keep up with it, and stay up beat.
This past year has given me a some amazing life lessons and taught me who my true family and friends are. Pain is a mean teacher, but it teaches with a clarity that is difficult to obtain otherwise. There is also something to be said for shedding the old… the old self… and the costumes of the old self. I gutted my closet this past weekend and donated nearly everything from my old self’s wardrobe.
This next year, I’m hoping to be able to pull of SRS which emotionally is a very big life goal for me. I can’t put into words the pain I feel looking at my current genitals. There is no happiness there, there is only a numbness necessary to get to the next day. I know it sounds depressing and it is, but we all do things to cope, to get us to the next day.
I might also learn some French, get a desk lamp, and listen to more music this year. I have a few more goals for this year, but I’ve got to keep at least a few secret from my fans.
So here is to the New Year, with hopefully less pain, more happiness, success, and an attitude of ass kickery that it deserves.