Tag Archives: fears

A few achievements unlocked and the freakout continues.

Well, this week has been interesting. I’ll start with achievements unlocked, in order. Got my first mammogram!  Wheeeee! Got my first doctor bursting into the room in a slight freakout expressing concern. Got my first business card to a cancer … Continue reading

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It takes being numb to express how I feel… and I hate it.

I took 1mg of lorazepam about 2 hours ago.  It is keeping me nice and grounded, and I’m not the crying wreak I was about two hours ago. I’m at this point where I seem to be crying myself to … Continue reading

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Life, Ties, Future Paths, Pain, and the no-win.

It was never clear to me how much my life would change.  How painful those changes would be, how lonely my future paths would be, and how much pain I would be in because there is no-win.  There is eventual sufficient treatment … Continue reading

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anti-depressants

In reflecting this past week, I’m sure of one thing.  I wouldn’t want to see myself without anti-depressants right now.  Bottom line is that I’m a bit of a mess… and without at least the stability that I’m getting from … Continue reading

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Relationship News

This is one I don’t feel like advertising.  This is a hard one for me. I have some relationship news to share, and its even more heartbreaking then events before for me, but I think most of my friends are … Continue reading

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Blue Toes and She’s Not There

Last night, I painted my toe nails a shiny blue color.  I kind of like it.  Although I don’t think my non-existant readership cares about my toe nails. Also, I finished “She’s Not There” by Jennifer Finney Boylan.  It is … Continue reading

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